The last post I made on here was 12 years ago which is crazy. I feel like an entirely different person than whoever the opiate addict was back then. Still clean from it. Still got the physical, mental and emotional scars from the shit, but it's better than being dead or a useless junkie.
I don't remotely know the rules here these days, so I'm gonna keep it brief, I just wanted to take the opiate addiction post out of being the main thing people see.
I know most addicts never get clean, so I try to be grateful for being clean, but I worked my fucking ass off to maintain that. I struggle immensely with a plethora of physical and mental issues, but I've still kept going and kept trying. Failed many times in many different ways, but I learn new shit every day (while also forgetting new shit every day).
Getting older sucks but a thing I'm trying to remind myself is that it's never too late to really begin your life. Dan Avidan of Game Grumps is a pretty big inspiration in that regard. Hopefully I can actually figure out the thing I can do that resonates with people, and I can make more of a mark than I've allowed myself to make.
I definitely needed to do all this growing up for this to even be possible though. We shall see what the future holds...
xeiavica
I don't know if the mods were more strict back then, but if the BBS supporter forum is to be any indication, it's gotten more lenient on what threads are allowed. Take a good look at a wegra or drunkgecko thread and you'll see what I mean.
Thetatronica
I came up on here in the 2000/2001 days of racial slurs, school shooter games, hentai games and all the other insanity that was common, so it was quite a different place when I used to actually frequent it. I just figured since it was starting to be more censored back when I made the post 12 years ago, I imagine it's probably even more censored now.